Hey guys! So first of Happy Valentines Day to all the happy couples, and Happy Single Awareness Day to all the singles out there. And of course I still fall under Single Awareness Day.
So today really wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I expected a day full of self pity, no thanks to one of my friends who's getting over a break up. You see, when one of my friends is going through something I feel for them and think about them all of the time. Hence, I myself feel like I'm going through a break up. But today really wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. Even the candy and hearts and teddy bears didn't bother me. Why? Because I myself received a Valentines Day present :) H gave me a VDay cookie :) It was a chocolate chip cookie in a tin with little candy hearts that said "Be Mine" in different languages. Of course I know it's not a gift of affection in that way, but he gave it to me nonetheless, although I refused to take it at first :P After I accepted it, he officially deemed me his Valentine. I shared the cookie though, so everyone who had a piece became his Valentine :P But still super sweet of him, and I secretly hope that maybe he did intend to give it to me and not have me share it.
On the other hand, H and I are no longer in the friend zone, for those who don't know what that means, it means that you are only a friend int he eyes of someone, nothing more nothing less, you can also check this video out (x). A few weeks ago, we would still be saying "that's what friends are for," "you're a good friend," "you're one of the closer friends I have," "I only tell stuff like this to my closest friends." Now we never call each other friends, that was suddenly dropped for both of us. When we talk now, it's more like "You're one of the closest people to me right now," "You're the best," "I'll always be here for you." So out of the friend zone and into something new? I'm not sure, but one thing is for sure, our connection got way deeper since we're helping each other out with something very personal to one another. Who knows what might happen? I sure don't...
If you might have some advice, comments, anything, let me know. Anything may be helpful at this point.
-J
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