Friends

A friend is described by the Merriam-Webster dictionary as "one attached to another by affection or esteem". And I find that friends are very important people in our lives. I believe that every person has one friend, no matter what they believe, and what is amazing about friends is that they come in all forms and sometimes in the most unexpected places. And what is amazing about it is that you make them through emotions, you connect with your friends through shared emotions or common interests.

We make friends when we are mad, sad, happy, lost, and in all stages of our lives, young or old. We all appreciate company from people who truly care about us. However we have to remember that there are several types of friends. Friends can be like family, they can be like brothers and sisters, but family can also be friends. You can treat your brother/sister like a friend. I know I treat mine like friends :). 

But coming back to friends, we have different kinds, we have the ones that we see all the time, the ones that we do everything with and tell everything too. This group of friends usually consist of a little group of people usually from 1-4 friends, usually referred to as out best friend(s). 

Then we have friends, who are the people you hang out with a lot, but don't tell everything to, this can be anyone from a simple classroom friend to a work friend. Just someone you enjoy being around and that you have common interests with.

Then there are other friends, friends you don't see all the time, but when you do, you feel like you've been with them the whole time you were apart. The friends that you feel like you've known forever and can trust even though you have just met... 

Then there are the friends that use you for various things, homework, a fill in for someone else, a person that you can get things through... those are the friends that you want to let go of, the ones you know won't be there for you when you need them the most, the ones that will drop you in the blink of an eye and never look back.

The ones you want to keep forever are the ones that you know will be there for you forever, the ones that you enjoy being around, and the ones that you trust and hold dear to you heart, and most importantly they feel the same way about you. Unfortunately, we don't usually know which friends are true and which are false until something bad happens. I know I knew who my friends were when I was stuck in the situation with BF, my true friends stayed with me while I cried and complained for a long time, and the others simply left me alone and observed. There is also when I have my depression episodes, my true friends would stay with me and tell me that it's all good, and that I am perfect no matter what others may say about me or what I may even think about myself.

I am very grateful to have the friends I have at the moment, my true friends who are always going to be there for me, and I will always be there for them as well. Right now my close friends that I never want to be separated from can be counted with one hand, and I want to keep it that way, I like the close knit circle I have created with my friends, although one of these friends are not close with the others, I still cherish him, and hope that I will never loose him, because I know loosing him would break my heart. Maybe not as greatly as with my other friends, because loosing them will mark me forever. But he is still very special. He is the one I can trust with anything and the one that gives me advice straight from his heart, he doesn't give me what I want to hear, he gives me what I need to hear. 

So since I know most of the close friends mentioned in this post will be reading this, I want to say thank you for being my friend and sticking with me through all my ups and downs, all my moments, both bad and good. Thank you for being there for me.  You guys love me for who I am, no matter how ridiculous, you guys help me be true to myself and help me see who I truly am, even if I don't see it most of the time. You guys are like the light that cuts through the fog, and help me get to the other side safe and sound. You guys are truly the greatest friends I have, and I hope I have been there for you as much as you have been for me.

And to that one other friend, I know you'll probably never see this, but I hope I never loose you no matter what happens. I may be selfish for wanting to keep you, but you are truly one of the people that have kept me grounded in the past month and the one I've trusted with the secrets I may have never told anyone else. Thank you for being the shoulder I can lean on and the rock to keep me grounded. You will probably never understand how much I appreciate having a friend like you. You listen to all my little stories and complaints and know how to make me see the bright side of things. Thank you.

-J