What Am I to Say?

This is a post dedicated to someone, and although I would never say it to them, or send it to them, it's the answer to the questions they've been asking me.

Did I do the right thing?
"I don't know if you did the right thing, I really don't. And I can't tell you if you did the right thing either, because a) I'm not you, and b) my answer would be bias. And I'm not a mean person, so I can't say "Yes, you did do the right thing" because you still love her. And no matter what I say, that won't change. I can say I hope you did to the right thing again and again, but that won't change how you feel about me. It won't make you realize that someone cares about you so much more than you think. It won't make you realize you like me either. You're depressed, and that's because you feel like you shouldn't have let her go. I know you still love her, and so do you, so the answer should be "No, you didn't the right thing" right? But the thing is I don't want you to go back to her, because I don't want to see you with another girl. But I have to say that you might have made the right choice, because you yourself want her to be happy and find someone else, you justified the reasons for your breakup. And this will get you to turn a new leaf."

Should I go into another relationship?
"My answer is no, not because I don't to see you with another woman, but because you shouldn't rush into anything. Especially when you know it's not going to be anything serious. First off, you're just going to end up hurting yourself and the person you get into a relationship with. I don't want you hurting yourself anymore than you are now. And I don;t want you to feel guilty for breaking another girls heart after you end that "rebound" relationship. I want you to be whole again and go find someone that's right for you, even if that person isn't me. I want you to be happy, and I know it may be stupid to say considering that I like you so much, but trust me, I would rather you see happy and not in my arms than see you sad and alone or with me.But I'm not going to let go until I know that you love the person you're going to ask out."

What if there is someone for me out there, and I just threw her away?
"If you were meant to be with her, then you guys will find your way back to one another. If you truly were you guys will somehow get back together. But if you guys don't then you'll find someone else, just like she did. And yes, a lot of us have already met the person we were meant to be, but so many of us also haven't met that person yet. maybe you're one of the people that hasn't. Or maybe you do know the person, but just don't know it's them yet. We all spend our lives looking for just the right person, so focused that we never notice the person that was perfect for us until it's too late. Just give it time, your heart will mend, although the scar will always be there, and you will find the right girl. That I can promise you."

Sincerely,
Your secret admirer,
-J

Coincidence?

So this morning, I had a dream about SB and H. And I am fully aware that I might be blowing things out of proportion, but what else is a girl to do between her studying for classes, homework and thinking about boys? That's right, I go crazy overboard thinking about the boys I like.

So in this dream, I was out with a bunch of friends, that SB and H were also part of. We were going to Fête des Neiges, which is currently underway in Montreal. We were walking around from igloo to igloo, and we were all fooling around, taking pictures. Then suddenly as dreams always are, we ended up in a convenience store, where everyone was buying things. I ended up with SB, and we were walking around with our arms linked. We ended up in my car, our arms still linked, my head resting on his shoulder, and as I was about to remove my head from his shoulder, he pulled me back to him. He was so warm and comforting. Then, we noticed H leaving us in another car (Coincidence that he would just leave? Maybe not, but it's not like him in real life, but then again it is just a dream). But after H, left and everyone else joined us in the car. SB and I were sitting next to eat other and he ended up holding my hand! :) You guys might be thinking I'm freaking out over nothing, but the thing is I though I was loosing interest in SB, but then I have a dream about him, and it's a cute one. Dreams like this always mess me up a little, because even though they are dreams, they reflect my subconsciousness . If I had a dream about him, it means that I still think about him subconsciously. Which gets me really confused and annoyed, especially when I have to focus on school.

But I still haven't gotten to the part that is the biggest coincidence for me yet. I didn't finish this dream, the dream was interrupted, by who other than H, and this is real life H, not the dream version of him. Now what I want to know is, is this just a coincidence and I'm over thinking every single little detail about out of everything possible, a dream, or is it a message that I like SB, but H is what's keeping us apart? Or is it telling me that H is the one I want to be with, so I should stop thinking about SB? I'm really lost on this one, so thoughts anyone?

-J