Strange Dreams

So, you know how dreams are always weird, you never know how they start and you always forget them as soon as you wake up? Well most of them anyways. And people always say that the dreams you have are all about things that you have "unresolved" during the day or are stressing out about. Also, the people and places you see in dreams are all people you've seen and places are all of places that you've been. But I don't necessarily believe that, some of it does make sense, like how could you be somewhere if you don't know what it looks like, or how could you be "talking" to someone if you didn't know how they spoke?

But I have a few arguments to make for some of these facts.

1. I've had a deja vu moment from a dream about being a drink from this exact guy that I didn't know and he said something to be after he gave me my drink in my dream and last year, that exact sense took place, with the store looking the same, same uniforms, same guy, same drink, but I had that dream before ever seeing the store in my life.
2. Another time was when, well I cant recall the dream very well, but in the dream, I remember meeting a guy with shoulder length silver hair with blue/violet eyes. And he looked like no one I have ever crossed paths with in my life.

Anyways, this post was not meant to question the concept of dreams, it was to talk about a dream I had a few days ago that I just can't seem to forget, and that was also very weird for me.

The dream was of me and a guy, L, at a party,and he was my date. And the thing is I don't like L so why would he be my date anyways? But he was my date and we danced, and laughed and I was having a great time. Then we sat down, I think we were at a wedding or something, all I remember is that we were very dressed up and I was sitting on his lap, which was wrinkling my dress, so I decided to sit on a chair and he put his hand on my knee. And I liked the feeling...which is weird cause I don't think I would feel comfortable with him touching me like that in real life. and I don't like him like him, I mean we've known each other for a while now, and he's always making fun of me and play fighting with me, but we are for sure not interested in one another. He's into stereotypical tall and pretty girls and I'm into smart, sensitive guys. But somehow this dream is bugging me, a lot more than it should...

-J

In Need of R&R

So tired... I've been working the past few days and I am tired from that, well more like my feet are soar, but then today I decide to spend the whole day in wedges. Smart choice? Not so  much, cause now my feet really really hurt me :( But as I type, and you perhaps read, I am preparing a tub of water to soak my feet in. Hopefully they come out feeling amazing.

Aside from that, I haven't been up to much, granted it hasn't been that long since I last updated. Just worked and had a lunch date with my friends today. So that was fun. Also cause it's one of the only times I get to go out with my friends.

I have finished most of my half finished books, so I've finished Micro and Fifty Shades Darker in just have to finish Game of Thrones and I should be able to move ahead with my reading list, next I'll be tackling the John Green books. and I've started the last Fifty Shades book, what is it about this series that makes me want to keep reading it?

I still haven't talked to H, and even though I miss him sometimes, I don't text him, and it's weird, but it feels good to get some distance from him and it even feels comfortable to a certain extent. I know that it might not make sense, but I'm not that bugged by the fact that we haven't talked for such a long time, well okay, the fact that I'm writing this here means I do care, but I don't know, I don't want to text him cause he may not want to talk to me, and if he wanted to talk to me, he would text me no? But W and BB are saying that maybe he's thinking the same thing on his end, maybe he's waiting for me to text. But like the lambda test I was doing a while ago, I guess I'll just have to wait and see if he comes around. Sigh... why do boys have to be so complicated?

Stay cool and enjoy your summer!
-J

At a Lost

Okay guys, I am in a depressed mood tonight, and I have no idea why? Well I do sort of have an idea why, but I thought I was over this and that I could just sort of forget about it. But no, it just has to come back in the most pain in the ass moments... Especially when all I want to do is be happy and stress free... Guess life just wants me to suffer or something... Cause I'm not a happy camper at the moment.

I have no idea why, but I keep thinking about H, and no matter how much I try to convince myself that I got over him, I don't think I have... sometimes I hate myself for being so attached to people. I wish I could just forget about him and move on. And it's simple right? It's summer, out of sight, out of mind... Well not really. I haven't seen him for 3 weeks now, and he is still not out of mind... To be honest, don't think he'll ever be out of mind. He was like a best friend to me. He was somewhat like a replacement for U, and I really liked him...  And now not seeing him, has in a way made it easier to forget him, but when I miss him, I just miss him so much harder. And I know this is kind of strange, but I kind of do want to break contact with him. Maybe not talking to him at all would make it so much easier for me. Like not having to worry about anything and just start fresh, meet new people in university and get to know people at work. But I know once school starts that he'll be in some of my classes cause we're in the same program and there is only one section for some of our classes, or simply because I'll miss having him around... But I have a feeling we won't be friends anymore anyways, cause I've sort of given up talking to him the past few days, and he doesn't seem to be making an effort to keep in touch, so maybe this is meant to be? I'll meet new people at work and at school, and maybe hopefully, I'll find someone else to crush on, because frankly, this crush is crushing me pretty hard...

-J

Manners Matter

Do you know someone who doesn't have any manners at all? Or someone who does something rude all the time that has become your pet peeve? Like always interrupting when you talk, always texting during your conversations or just plain out rude because they don't censor what they say before it comes out of their mouth? Well to those people, manners matter! We may be living in the 21st century, but respect is still a huge people pleaser so learn some. I mean, I understand that sometimes we can't help it cause we're in a bad mood, but come on. And I can't say I'm perfect and always respectful. i actually text during conversations with people sometimes, and I know it's rude, but I apologize for doing it, I don't just keep texting and ignore the person I'm with.

Also, hitting people before you say something to them? Stop that, I know you're trying o get someones attention, but to hit them before EVERY statement gets very annoying and at a point it's rude and just unclassy.

But most of all, think about what you say before you say anything. Don't let rude comments slip out of your mouth, think about it first. And to be honest, saying something in a nice voice doesn't make your message any nicer.

Now most of you are probably wondering why I'm going on on this long rant that most of you probably don't care about, so I'll tell you. I have a friend who is just rude, the things she says sometimes makes you wonder why she would ever say a thing like that to begin with. She basically told me that I would be a failure at life, end up with a crappy job, and even do a crappy job at that. and she is one of my closer friends. Like WTF? You don't go up to a close friend and say stuff like that. she has called another one of my friends and "anorexic freak." My friend is not anorexic, but she is all too aware of her small figure, and it hurt her, because she is trying to gain weight, but just can't. She's also referred to her as someone with just one vein going through her body because she was so small. once again, you don't say stuff like that to people.

Basically, I just want to tell you guys, please be more considerate to the people around you. Most of these people love you, but if you don't treat them with respect, or realize what hurts them and keep hurting them they will one day leave you, and you may never know why, but they know fully well why.

-J