Happy Valentines Day! (or Single Awareness Day) ♥

Hey guys! So first of Happy Valentines Day to all the happy couples, and Happy Single Awareness Day to all the singles out there. And of course I still fall under Single Awareness Day.

So today really wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I expected a day full of self pity, no thanks to one of my friends who's getting over a break up. You see, when one of my friends is going through something I feel for them and think about them all of the time. Hence, I myself feel like I'm going through a break up. But today really wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. Even the candy and hearts and teddy bears didn't bother me. Why? Because I myself received a Valentines Day present :) H gave me a VDay cookie :) It was a chocolate chip cookie in a tin with little candy hearts that said "Be Mine" in different languages. Of course I know it's not a gift of affection in that way, but he gave it to me nonetheless, although I refused to take it at first :P After I accepted it, he officially deemed me his Valentine. I shared the cookie though, so everyone who had a piece became his Valentine :P But still super sweet of him, and I secretly hope that maybe he did intend to give it to me and not have me share it.

 On the other hand, H and I are no longer in the friend zone, for those who don't know what that means, it means that you are only a friend int he eyes of someone, nothing more nothing less, you can also check this video out (x). A few weeks ago, we would still be saying "that's what friends are for," "you're a good friend," "you're one of the closer friends I have," "I only tell stuff like this to my closest friends." Now we never call each other friends, that was suddenly dropped for both of us. When we talk now, it's more like "You're one of the closest people to me right now," "You're the best," "I'll always be here for you." So out of the friend zone and into something new? I'm not sure, but one thing is for sure, our connection got way deeper since we're helping each other out with something very personal to one another. Who knows what might happen? I sure don't...

If you might have some advice, comments, anything, let me know. Anything may be helpful at this point.

-J

A Glass of Wine for One?

So as most of you guys know Valentine's Day is coming up! For all the couples out there I am extremely happy that you guys have found someone special to you. For all the single ladies (me included), let us not spend this day feeling lonely. We all know that just because it's Valentine's day doesn't mean that the guy we like only loves us on this one day of the year. If they truly loved us, they would love us all year long (this goes to all you taken guys and girls as well!) We live in the 21st century, a girl can also ask a girl out, right? Heck yes! so all you girls out there, maybe the guy is too shy to ask, give it a shot, you never know till you do it right? And as I'm saying this, I will let you know that I have no intentions of telling H how I feel for the moment yet. That is something I will keep to myself a little longer unfortunately, I'm still working some feelings out. But I do hope to get some news about that to you guys sometimes soon, I know one particular reader that seems to want news about him :P (you know who you are). But all this set aside, although I'm not doing anything special on this Valentine's Day doesn't mean that I will be spending it feeling lonely.

Although seeing all the happy couples around me does make me sad, like it does every year. This year I know that although I'm not in a relationship I know that there is someone out there who thinks about me and worries about me (and no it is not a family member). An actual guy, someone who will remain letterless. But this person is very nice to me, and although we might not have romantic feelings for one another, I'm glad that I have a support at the moment. So thank you for that.

What I think about Valentine's Day is that it is just commercial holiday, like I've said before, you should be letting the person you like know that you love them everyday, not one day of the year because your calender and society says so. But that doesn't mean I don't want to receive flowers or roses on that day :P

So now you must be wondering why I have the title I have. Well this title is because I got a bottle of wine from H and SB on my birthday and I have yet to drink it. I don't know when I will, but when I do, it will probably be alone, maybe on Valentine's day (I kid). I guess, I was hoping I would be able to share it with either one of them, but clearly that won't be happening any time soon...

Till next time :)

-J