20 (More) Things about J

Hey guys, so I had a challenge with the last 20 Things about J so I decided to do another one :) Here goes (again):

1. I love to bake (cookies, brownies, cakes, etc)
2. I want to learn how to play guitar and the piano
3. I've held 5 guys hands that I remember of. One of my childhood crush, 2 different Matthew's in the past year (yes I just broke my no name rule on that one), one with a guy at my birthday party last year (we were eating and we just held hands), and one that was with a guy I kind of liked but didn't.
4. I know how to knit, but just basic stuff
5. I taught myself how to swim (I'm not good at it, if you pushed me into a deep pool, I would probably drown)
6. I'm a huge pessimist, although I hate it and try not to be
7. My favorite part of my body are my lips, then it would be my eyes
8. I currently have 5 best friends (W, ST, Y, BB and H)
9. If I could be anything in life, I would want to be an actress
10. I feel like I've gotten a lot more confident over the past year (I'm still a push over though :P but it's getting better)
11. I've cried in front of a teacher (thankfully he was a social worker too, so he didn't make it awkward for me, well anymore awkward than it already was)
12. I've had a crush on 10 guys (4 of them were blond with blue eyes)
13. I talk about work way to much, and hang out around work to much too
14. If I could live anywhere in the world it would probably be New York (in a city girl)
15. My dream house would include a bay window (so I can sit there and read), and a pool in the backyard
16. I wish I could get someone to let me decorate their house completely to my design
17. I will almost never admit it, but I love hugging AA, he makes me feel safe and stress free for some reason
18. my favorite food is seaweed (on sushi or roasted or in soup or in salad)
19. My favorite cartoon character is Pikachu
20. I love to sing and dance (but I'm not good at either)

Another 20 things about me completed! This one was a little trickier to finish, I had to think about a lot of these :) But I did it! So now you know 40 things about me total.

-J

Have I Found One Thing I'm Good At?

I've recently noticed, and I have no idea if this is true about myself, but I've noticed that I seem to bring out the best in people. I know it's something weird to say, and you're probably thinking, doesn't everyone bring the best out in people? To that last question I will have to answer no right away, because some people seem to only bring the bad out of people, like getting people mad all the time, or simply being a bad influence on people.

But I like to believe that I bring out the good in a lot of my friends and people that I meet. I'm not saying that I change these people and they become a very good person after meeting me, no, I mean I seem to always get them to be themselves and true around me. One example of this is AA, he's an obnoxious person, and is not every nice about his grades when he compares to others, he always brags and makes people feel dumb. But with me he's always super nice, and makes sure I don't feel stupid compared to him.

Another example is a guy that I will name MA, he is very smart, and like AA, he likes to brag about his accomplishments. But when it comes to me, he would say that I am doing a good job in school and that I'm smart. Now it sounds like I'm just taking compliments from these two guys, but in truth they are also more considerate to other people when I'm with them. People have told me that on separate occasions AA and MA have been really rude to them, but when I'm with them, they are nicer.

I've also recently met a girl, ST, who is a very shy girl, who doesn't talk much. She had begun to come out of her shell so to speak, but she's really herself around me. She's not afraid to be herself with me, and we act super silly all the time. I would like to believe that part of that is due to my influence, but I know that it isn't all because of me.

So I don't know if it's simply due to the fact that people pity me, find me stupid, genuinely like me, or find me weird enough to be themselves around me, but I think that I do bring the best out of people, or at least a better version of themselves.

-J