Update

Hey guys!

Sorry, I know I've been AWOL for a while, but nothing eventful has happened recently. It's march break, sorry, "reading week", because we're all supposed to be reading and doing homework and studying and such. Ya, like that happens. Most of my week has been spent sleeping in and going out. But yes, it's spring break, which means I don't get to see H much. He was supposed to go out of town, but in the end he ended up staying in town. So that's somewhat of a yay. But we don't talk much, and we don't have any plans to hang out cause we both have homework and we have a test next week. I try to talk to him, but I feel like I'm just being annoying, although I know he doesn't think of it that way... But I still feel bad if I bug him everyday with trivial things. But then when I don't talk to him, I can't focus on other things because I keep thinking about him. Who knew liking someone can be such a pain in the a** right? But another reason I don't talk to him is because of my λ tests. I want to see if he wants to talk to me, not just because I talk to him first, but because he actually wants to talk to me about something. I've noticed that recently I've been the one to start conversations. But sometimes it's just hard not to talk to him for too long. I feel like it's just something I'm so used to and without a conversation a few times a week, something's missing. It's hard to describe the feeling, all I know is that I miss him a lot.

Now, it was his birthday a little while ago, and I didn't see him on his birthday. But I do have a little present for him, it's not much, original but a little corny at the same time. And I'm debating on whether I should give it to him or not. Now, seeing as we are friends, I'm guessing you don't see the problem, butt he things is I don't usually give presents to guys even though it's their birthday. and at the same time it's H, I know he won't throw the present out or anything. He's too nice for that. But I'm, for the lack of a better word, shy. So my question is: Should I give him the present or not? ST tells me I should, because I spent my time hand making it, but tell me what you guys think...

-J