Clarification and a Game

Hey guys,

So I know some of you guys are going "J is boy crazed, I mean look at L, F & T" But honestly, I'm not that boy crazed. So let me get the story straight with all of the guys.

L: Is not some guy that I would like, I said I had a dream about him and yes, I said I might be interested, but trust me he is not the type of guy that I would be interested in or even consider dating. He's in a way irresponsible, but then he surprises you on many levels too. He's into things that you would never expect, and it surprises me in a good way and I think that's what has me attracted to him. So yes, my admiration for him is not so much love, but more like knowing what he'll surprise me with next. Plus having him around keeps me witty because I always have to talk back to him. Plus he claimed I was his at the beginning of the year to one of the girls at work, so umm... I don't now possessive much?

F: Good looking, not cocky, although he's good looking and has every reason to be a douche, he isn't. He's very sweet and easy to get along with. He's more like a good friend, although he does have the sickest eyes I've ever seen. He's sweet,  but once again it's not like I like him, like him. But I if something were to happen between us I would not be against it cause a) he's cute b) he's sweet and c) we g to the same school which means we can see each other more often.

T: He's an old crush of mine, and it was great t be able to see him again, and be able to joke around with him, but seeing him leave kinda makes me think to how I don't think he was interested in me and how he's a distant when we aren't at work, although to be fair I never texted him either. So maybe that's a fault on both our part? But I don't know, although people at work seem to like the idea of the two of us going out, I don't think it'll happen...

Now enough about boys, because, sadly I am still single and it get's depressing thinking about boys all day...

Let me let you guys get to know me a little better, we'll play 2 lies and a truth, so here goes
-I've never gotten any final mark under a 70
-I've never shoplifted
-I've never yelled at my brother in public
Tell me which on you guys think is the lie, I'm kind of curious to see what you guys think.

Well until next time, remember that laughter is the best medicine!
-J

And It's a Go!

Okay, so remember when I told you guys I had a dream about me and L? And we were dating, and dancing or what not, and I said it was totally bonkers? Well, I'm starting to think maybe not...

So I've recently realized that I might not like him like him, but I definitely have some attraction towards him. It's not so much that I want to date him, but I don't know, just be around him? I know what some of you are thinking, but he is not a guy I would date. I just know he's not, it's a gut feeling. But I do feel something, which is strange...

On the other hand T just had his official last day, so that means no more T, I'm never going to see him again, because of the fact that we both go to different schools... Ohh life. I'll miss his little cluelessness and his laugh, such an adorable laugh.

Other than that, my NYC trip is going to happen! So excited! Can't wait to be off before Uni starts! It's going to be a 3 day trip with 2 of my friends, yes a bunch couldn't come cause of personal reasons, but I'm not going to let that be a bummer. I shall enjoy this trip no matter what! And of course shop! Sigh, there goes all the money I made this summer :P But hopefully it'll be worth it and hopefully I might have something to talk about when I get back! Can't wait to get some major shopping done and just get time away from work and just enjoy a few days on my own. Plus the night before I leave, there is a free, yes FREE, MSO concert at the Olympic stadium. I've always wanted to go see one of their shows and I'm not willing to pay 50$ for a concert that I might not end up liking, so this is going to be a test run to see if I'll like it or not. I feel like a free concert for something I've wanted to see for a good 4 years now is a good way to start off my mini vacation before school starts and reality sets in.

And I'm on my 13th book for the summer! Yes, 13! I'm a nerd, that I shall admit. But I am very proud of myself, although the books aren't super hard to read English classics, I'm still doing very well, maybe on the last post of the summer I'll add up all the pages I have read and impress you guys :P Probably won't do that great of a job, but meh, a girl can try.

I'm also trying to squeeze as many activities in for the rest of the summer as possible, so I'm making plans to meet up for lunch or supper or ways to spend the day, cause to be honest, I might not be friends with some of the friends i have right now for longer, with us going to different Universities in different programs and for some, even in different provinces... It may be time to say bye to some friends, so I will cherish what ever time we have left together.

Well, feel free to tell me what you think of my summer plans, my bookwormness or just say hi :)

-J

Wake Up Call and Day Dreams

OMG! I have finally heard from ST it's been forever since I've spoken to her, mostly cause she is not in the country at the moment, which country you ask? Well let me just say a country with a big time difference from here in Montreal. It was super great hearing from her and super great having an hour long chat after waking up from a tiring day at work. It was a great wake up call! So ST if you are by chance reading this, I can't wait till you get back :)

Strange Dreams

So, you know how dreams are always weird, you never know how they start and you always forget them as soon as you wake up? Well most of them anyways. And people always say that the dreams you have are all about things that you have "unresolved" during the day or are stressing out about. Also, the people and places you see in dreams are all people you've seen and places are all of places that you've been. But I don't necessarily believe that, some of it does make sense, like how could you be somewhere if you don't know what it looks like, or how could you be "talking" to someone if you didn't know how they spoke?

But I have a few arguments to make for some of these facts.

1. I've had a deja vu moment from a dream about being a drink from this exact guy that I didn't know and he said something to be after he gave me my drink in my dream and last year, that exact sense took place, with the store looking the same, same uniforms, same guy, same drink, but I had that dream before ever seeing the store in my life.
2. Another time was when, well I cant recall the dream very well, but in the dream, I remember meeting a guy with shoulder length silver hair with blue/violet eyes. And he looked like no one I have ever crossed paths with in my life.

Anyways, this post was not meant to question the concept of dreams, it was to talk about a dream I had a few days ago that I just can't seem to forget, and that was also very weird for me.

The dream was of me and a guy, L, at a party,and he was my date. And the thing is I don't like L so why would he be my date anyways? But he was my date and we danced, and laughed and I was having a great time. Then we sat down, I think we were at a wedding or something, all I remember is that we were very dressed up and I was sitting on his lap, which was wrinkling my dress, so I decided to sit on a chair and he put his hand on my knee. And I liked the feeling...which is weird cause I don't think I would feel comfortable with him touching me like that in real life. and I don't like him like him, I mean we've known each other for a while now, and he's always making fun of me and play fighting with me, but we are for sure not interested in one another. He's into stereotypical tall and pretty girls and I'm into smart, sensitive guys. But somehow this dream is bugging me, a lot more than it should...

-J

Visit from the Green Eyed Monster?

So as you guys know, I've been talking to H again. He's gone on a camping trip this weekend though, so no H for a little while. But that is not what I want to talk to you guys in this post.

I was telling H how I always get hurt at work, the exact same way, by scratching myself on a loose metal piece in one of our stores, this time it left a 3 inch long mark on my leg -.- I was telling him how every time I got hurt this way, F was always in the store. So I've pointed out that F is a cutie already. But H asked and I quote "Have a crush on him ;)?" and I answered I'm not sure, but that's he's cute nice and has really nice eyes. After my last comment, he stopped texting me, now it can be that he left for his trip or that he went to bed, but H never ever leaves me hanging, there is always a goodnight or a ttyl from him. So this might be me looking into things, but could it be that he got a visit from the green eyed monster called jealousy? Once again, I can't be certain, but if it is, is it really to be unexpected for me to like someone else when he rejected me and then goes awol for a month after school ends?

But no matter what I'm glad that H and I are talking again :) He's still concerned about my health and over all well being, he'll never change :)

-J

Diva and an Old Friend

Hey guys!

So my little cousin is in town. Okay maybe not so little, more like fifteen and acting like a diva cousin. We went out for supper today and she was, okay I have to admit she's super pretty. She's like one of the typical popular girls you see in school, skinny, long flowing hair, tanned and looks good in anything. And she's only fifteen :( Ohh why is the gene pool so unfair to some of us? But she's not the person I want to spend a lot of time with, maybe cause of my insecurities about myself or maybe cause I just don't like her attitude, but I would rather spend some extra time at work :P I am a mean mean cousin. But being around her makes me feel like i don't belong, i mean, not only is she pretty, but she's smart too. I guess in a way she just scares me because she's so seemingly perfect.

Aside from the visit from my cousin, I have the usual things going on: work, reading, trying to work out but failing at it cause I'm so tired from work, trying to plan my NYC trip, trying to make plans with friends, trying to find someone to get my mind off H, because yes I'm that lame and I still miss him...

Speaking of H, I'm finally talking to him again :) we are talking as I'm writing this post. He's still being his usual caring self, worrying about my health and such. I must say, I've missed talking to him :) He's like an older brother I never had, in a way, although he is younger than I am :P I shall tell you guys how it goes another day, until them, I must bid you farewell as I am getting tired and I have to go to work tomorrow.

-J