Hey guys!
So the work season is in full bloom and I am tired! I've been working on average about thirty hours a week when the LaRonde was only open part time, and the past two weeks we have been open almost full time. That just mean that my hours are going to go up in the next few weeks. Now as much as I love working (even though I complain about it a lot, ask anyone), the hours are getting long and I'm getting tired, and I still have to study for my biology supplemental exam. I'm not even half way through the material yet, and it's going very slowly because I'm either always tired or meeting up with friends that I already don't see all that often. Yes, I feel guilty going out so much (like about once a week :P) but I also need the social time with my friends because although I work with both ST and W, I don't get to see them much because although we all work for the same boss, I'm not part of the same company as them. So we only see each other if I walk by one of the stores or during breaks or at the end of the day. But I know, it's not an excuse to not be studying, I'll try to do better.
Besides my guilt over not studying, I have a lot of things to say about work. I'll be working a lot in the next five days! and by a lot I mean about fifty hours in the next five days. It's a lot, I know, and I'll be a cranky bitch by the time Monday and Tuesday roll around, but hey, I will have worked a shit load! It averages out to ten hours a day, but my shifts (depending on the day) is anywhere between 9-13 hours long. Fireworks start this Saturday, so I'll only be getting home at about 2AM and guess what? I have to be up by 7 and head to work for 10 the next day! YAY for no sleep... not really :p But I will try to power through! I apologize to everyone in advance for my grouchiness though.
There's also been a lot of work drama, like L and BD have been going around pissing CL and myself off, like she would point out that the only reason we are in our positions is because we are our bosses favorites. We have more responsibilities because we're his favorites, and he also drives us home for the same reason. If we were his favorites, why are we doing more work than they are? If the only reason he drives us home is because he likes us, then why is L (whom my boss hates) is also getting a ride home? Like GW and MD have told be more than once, I am in my position because I can work, not because I've tried to suck up to my boss, and not because I've snitched out about a million people. I worked my ass off to be where I am today, and I am still working just as hard as I was on day one, if not harder. Yes, I have a few more things to do at work compared to BD, but that's just cause I happen to be around my boss when he needs help. It's not like I go up to him and demand more work (I'm crazy, but not that crazy). I also work at home sometimes without getting paid, and I know that BD would not be willing to put the amount of unpaid hours into work like I do. I also seem to have become the front line for the noobs at work, they text me whenever they have a problem with the schedule. So all this extra work really doesn't seem like I'm getting favored at all. Now I'm not going to deny that I am one of my boss' favorites, nor am I going to deny that I know who his other favorites are, but my boss is fair. He's not going to promote someone just cause he likes them more than another person. My boss is also the type to favorite the better workers. So like MD said to me a while back, I'm in my position because I can work better than others and my boss knows that. I'm not going to say I'm the best, because I know I'm far from that, but I know I'm working hard and my boss can see how hard I'm working even though others don't.
Also, I didn't want to write a whole other post for this, but WL was being adorable at work a few days ago. It was raining pretty badly and I gave him an umbrella cause he already put his work hat away. And we were walking from store to store and he would follow me around holding the umbrella for me. Now it may not have been super cute, but I just found it very gentleman like of him. He escorted me from store to store, brought me to the washroom and waited for me outside, even when I would switch the side I'm walking next to him, he would shift the umbrella so I was always under it. I found it was really sweet of him, and yes, my crush on him may be starting up again...
Anyways, until next time, whenever that may be :P
-J
Thursday, June 20, 2013
Sunday, June 2, 2013
Pet Peeves at Work and Guys Being Weird
Hey guys!
So no I haven't done much in terms of bio, I've been more focused on work and hanging out with my friends and just sitting around doing nothing (basically nothing). It's been warm here the past few days (albeit some rain), but it's been nice. A little too hot for the perfect comfortable weather, but it beats snow :P I don't actually have much to talk about, but I figured hey it's been a while and I don't feel like studying.
Works been going pretty great, I've had three manager shifts so far, and they aren't as bad as I thought it would be. All the new people seem to be doing well and the ones that aren't well.... they are never around so ya :P I'm getting used to the longer work hours, and I'm getting a lot more comfortable telling people what to do. The one thing that gets me is giving breaks to people cause it always seems like I'm going to run out of time. The only thing I don't like is that I feel removed from the employees, I feel like I won't get to know them as well as I would have if I was still an operations manager. I also don't like how I have to end up doing things on my days off, that end up causing mass confusion cause my boss would tell m, but not the manager that's actually working that day -.- He should always be working with the manager of the day and not someone who isn't around. And I also forgot that I hate it when all the new people ask me what's going on even though I'm not working that day. To be woken up by your boss and employees to do things on your day off is not always the best way to wake up... And this morning, there was a mess in communication between my boss, myself and the other manager. It was interesting :P
Aside from work, I haven't done much, I've been hanging out with W, BB, O, ST, and AK so it's been fun cause I don't get a chance to see everyone during the semester.
A few of my friends are also in Israel this summer for volunteering, H and AA included. And AA has been messaging me on Facebook and he wants to make plans to meet up when he gets back from his trip. Our convo actually started when he found out I wished H a nice trip but not him and he seemed jealous, which makes no sense, cause I never talk to him anymore. I barely see him in school and we never text. When we see each other, it's a quick hug and a little convo, generally about how tired we are or how an exam went. So I'm a little confused on his front, but I guess I'll see what becomes of this situation :P
L has also been weird lately, like he would get on my case at work about the stupidest things and he likes to pick little fights with my brother (and then get me involved, which he shouldn't cause it causes problems at work). and I honestly thinks he needs to get knocked into place -.- But he's also spent Friday being super nice to me. He even said that I sounded "girly" on the phone (he couldn't recognize my voice -.-). I don't know if the girly comment was an insult or not, but it didn't seem like it in our convo. He also spent the day bugging me like a fifth grader would when they have a crush on someone (please don't let that be the case) and he was also really touchy, always punching me and poking me and he even pet me... (like a fifth grader).
Why do guys have to be so flipping confusing?! Why can't it just me obvious if they like someone?
-J
So no I haven't done much in terms of bio, I've been more focused on work and hanging out with my friends and just sitting around doing nothing (basically nothing). It's been warm here the past few days (albeit some rain), but it's been nice. A little too hot for the perfect comfortable weather, but it beats snow :P I don't actually have much to talk about, but I figured hey it's been a while and I don't feel like studying.
Works been going pretty great, I've had three manager shifts so far, and they aren't as bad as I thought it would be. All the new people seem to be doing well and the ones that aren't well.... they are never around so ya :P I'm getting used to the longer work hours, and I'm getting a lot more comfortable telling people what to do. The one thing that gets me is giving breaks to people cause it always seems like I'm going to run out of time. The only thing I don't like is that I feel removed from the employees, I feel like I won't get to know them as well as I would have if I was still an operations manager. I also don't like how I have to end up doing things on my days off, that end up causing mass confusion cause my boss would tell m, but not the manager that's actually working that day -.- He should always be working with the manager of the day and not someone who isn't around. And I also forgot that I hate it when all the new people ask me what's going on even though I'm not working that day. To be woken up by your boss and employees to do things on your day off is not always the best way to wake up... And this morning, there was a mess in communication between my boss, myself and the other manager. It was interesting :P
Aside from work, I haven't done much, I've been hanging out with W, BB, O, ST, and AK so it's been fun cause I don't get a chance to see everyone during the semester.
A few of my friends are also in Israel this summer for volunteering, H and AA included. And AA has been messaging me on Facebook and he wants to make plans to meet up when he gets back from his trip. Our convo actually started when he found out I wished H a nice trip but not him and he seemed jealous, which makes no sense, cause I never talk to him anymore. I barely see him in school and we never text. When we see each other, it's a quick hug and a little convo, generally about how tired we are or how an exam went. So I'm a little confused on his front, but I guess I'll see what becomes of this situation :P
L has also been weird lately, like he would get on my case at work about the stupidest things and he likes to pick little fights with my brother (and then get me involved, which he shouldn't cause it causes problems at work). and I honestly thinks he needs to get knocked into place -.- But he's also spent Friday being super nice to me. He even said that I sounded "girly" on the phone (he couldn't recognize my voice -.-). I don't know if the girly comment was an insult or not, but it didn't seem like it in our convo. He also spent the day bugging me like a fifth grader would when they have a crush on someone (please don't let that be the case) and he was also really touchy, always punching me and poking me and he even pet me... (like a fifth grader).
Why do guys have to be so flipping confusing?! Why can't it just me obvious if they like someone?
-J
Tuesday, May 14, 2013
Change for the Better (I Hope)
Hey guys!
So I've been looking back at the past 3-4 years, and I've come to realize how much I've grown. I know I have a lot more growing to do, considering that I'm just 20, but I've changed a lot more than I thought I did in the past few years. Not only did my face look like I lost some baby fat, I also look like I've slimmed down a little. Now I know there is a lot more fat to burn, I know I don't look as bloated as I used to be. I was looking at my old employee passes and I noticed that I seemed to have lost weight every year, always a good sign, although cameras are known to play tricks (but the camera usually adds 10 lbs, so maybe I am loosing weight? :P) All kidding aside, I also feel a lot better about my body image now than I did back then. I can still work on that, admittedly A LOT, but it's better than it used to. My clothes are no longer just tshirts and jeans, although they are still my comfy outfit choice. I've also learned what type of clothes look better on by body type compared to others. So in the past few years my physical image has changed a lot.
I've also grown a lot on the inside as well. I've gained a lot more confidence than I give myself. I mean you tell me right out of High School that I would be a manager right now, I would have laughed in your face and told you that that would probably never happen. Then again, if you told me at the age of 15 that I was going to go into sciences, I would have thought you to be insane, but look at me now. So I guess things do change, and sometimes in a good an unexpected way. I'm a lot more confident now that I was in high school, I'm not as afraid of voicing my opinions (well depending on who I'm talking to). I also don't feel as uncomfortable leading a group of people as I did before. As someone once put it, "[I've] become a boss," and somehow I never noticed. But I'm glad I have this confidence now because I no longer look like the confused "new guy in town" all the time. I don't doubt all my decisions all the time (although it still happens a lot) and I start doing things that I know how to do without having to double check all the time first like I used to.
The one negative thing about my changes in the past few years is that I'm a lot less patient now. I used to be able to tolerate people's BS a lot better than I can now. I snap pretty easily and I also get emotional pretty easily. Maybe it's accumulated stress or it's just my learning how to not be a push over. I guess in someway it's good that I'm not going to let people push me around anymore, but I also have trouble communicating my feelings when I snap, so the situation actually never really gets any better... But I'm trying to work on it. According to ST, I'm a patient person... At least I think that's what she thinks? (please correct me if I'm wrong).
What I'm the most happy about is that my close group of friends (the real close group of friends) is always there to support me. They all support me if different ways, but I know that they are always there for me. If something is wrong they are willing to meet up with me or call me, or even text till ridiculous hours of the night. If they know something is wrong and I call, they'll call me back as soon as they can and they won't hang up until I feel better. And I know that I would do the same for them, because we are all close. The only thing that makes me sad is that my close group of friends is divided into a few groups. I have my close friends from high school: W, O, BB. Then I have my close friends from CEGEP: ST, and LN. And from work I have CL and, a new mention, CT from work. They are my current little support group. And sadly even in this little group I have the ones that I trust more than others :P I wonder if that's normal or I'm just being weird :P
But honestly, I'm happy that I got to think about how much I've changed in the past few years, it gives me a little more confidence in myself now, even just thinking back of the last few years and seeing that I made great new friends and seeing that I was able to lead a group of people and no one got hurt in the process (yet :P). Even looking back at comments I've received, I see now (since I'm no longer in the situation) that a lot of them weren't just people being polite. The compliments came from the heart.
-J
So I've been looking back at the past 3-4 years, and I've come to realize how much I've grown. I know I have a lot more growing to do, considering that I'm just 20, but I've changed a lot more than I thought I did in the past few years. Not only did my face look like I lost some baby fat, I also look like I've slimmed down a little. Now I know there is a lot more fat to burn, I know I don't look as bloated as I used to be. I was looking at my old employee passes and I noticed that I seemed to have lost weight every year, always a good sign, although cameras are known to play tricks (but the camera usually adds 10 lbs, so maybe I am loosing weight? :P) All kidding aside, I also feel a lot better about my body image now than I did back then. I can still work on that, admittedly A LOT, but it's better than it used to. My clothes are no longer just tshirts and jeans, although they are still my comfy outfit choice. I've also learned what type of clothes look better on by body type compared to others. So in the past few years my physical image has changed a lot.
I've also grown a lot on the inside as well. I've gained a lot more confidence than I give myself. I mean you tell me right out of High School that I would be a manager right now, I would have laughed in your face and told you that that would probably never happen. Then again, if you told me at the age of 15 that I was going to go into sciences, I would have thought you to be insane, but look at me now. So I guess things do change, and sometimes in a good an unexpected way. I'm a lot more confident now that I was in high school, I'm not as afraid of voicing my opinions (well depending on who I'm talking to). I also don't feel as uncomfortable leading a group of people as I did before. As someone once put it, "[I've] become a boss," and somehow I never noticed. But I'm glad I have this confidence now because I no longer look like the confused "new guy in town" all the time. I don't doubt all my decisions all the time (although it still happens a lot) and I start doing things that I know how to do without having to double check all the time first like I used to.
The one negative thing about my changes in the past few years is that I'm a lot less patient now. I used to be able to tolerate people's BS a lot better than I can now. I snap pretty easily and I also get emotional pretty easily. Maybe it's accumulated stress or it's just my learning how to not be a push over. I guess in someway it's good that I'm not going to let people push me around anymore, but I also have trouble communicating my feelings when I snap, so the situation actually never really gets any better... But I'm trying to work on it. According to ST, I'm a patient person... At least I think that's what she thinks? (please correct me if I'm wrong).
What I'm the most happy about is that my close group of friends (the real close group of friends) is always there to support me. They all support me if different ways, but I know that they are always there for me. If something is wrong they are willing to meet up with me or call me, or even text till ridiculous hours of the night. If they know something is wrong and I call, they'll call me back as soon as they can and they won't hang up until I feel better. And I know that I would do the same for them, because we are all close. The only thing that makes me sad is that my close group of friends is divided into a few groups. I have my close friends from high school: W, O, BB. Then I have my close friends from CEGEP: ST, and LN. And from work I have CL and, a new mention, CT from work. They are my current little support group. And sadly even in this little group I have the ones that I trust more than others :P I wonder if that's normal or I'm just being weird :P
But honestly, I'm happy that I got to think about how much I've changed in the past few years, it gives me a little more confidence in myself now, even just thinking back of the last few years and seeing that I made great new friends and seeing that I was able to lead a group of people and no one got hurt in the process (yet :P). Even looking back at comments I've received, I see now (since I'm no longer in the situation) that a lot of them weren't just people being polite. The compliments came from the heart.
-J
Monday, May 6, 2013
Stress Stress and more Stress
Hey guys,
So yes summer has started and I have already hit my first impasse. I have to write an exam at the end of the summer to get into one of the classes I'm taking in a future semester, so now I have to turn into a study monster (the transformation is taking some time... A LOT of time). I'm hoping to get started tomorrow so I know I have enough time to know most of the stuff and be as prepared as possible. This is not the main source of my stress, yet... but it will be. I'll let that hit me when it does.
My main source of stress is work. Like I pointed out before, I am stressed about how people will take me as a manager this year. I mean last year was great in terms of me being and operations manager but being manager, it feels like it takes stress levels to whole new level... And I'm scared of messing up or of being the manager that everyone hates. I've met up with most of the new recruits and a lot of them seem really nice, but of course, I have to see how they work before I can make a final verdict. BD, co-manager and has an hate/love relationship with me, has been very nice the past few days, which gets me very suspicious for some reason, and maybe I shouldn't be suspicious, but I am. She would Facebook message me and get her bf to text me on her behalf (she currently doesn't have a phone) and she would be really nice when we see each other. It's a ice change of pace from my usual walk on eggshells, but I can't help but be suspicious anyways. L also seems to be super nice and we're getting along well even though he was being a sour grape a little while back. But what is stressing me is my boss. I just feel like he might be expecting a little too much out of me. I mean , I have no clue what I'm doing. I've been working the past two days along with BD, L and GW and we've been briefing the new people in on the job and touring them to our different locations and my boss would suddenly be like "J, you do it" and he won't stop insisting till I do whatever it is he asked. Things went by a lot easier today, maybe cause it was a repeat of the previous day, but not as bumpy a ride :P I just feel like it's going to be a lot o pressure on me this year (most of the pressure I'll probably be putting on myself), but I just feel like it will be.
In the past two days, I've met with over 40 new employees, gotten sunburned like it's the middle of July, gotten along with a lot of the new employees and already had my boss chauffeur me around, I wouldn't say it's a bad of good start, but it is definitely a start of the season.
My relationship with my boss is also stressing me out a little. Because even thought I know I've worked hard to get to where I am, the things people say about being the "favorite" is getting to me a little. I'm starting to think that maybe I did just get lucky and ended up having a good relationship with my boss. I mean he drives me home after shifts, and he's driven me into work once of twice (mostly cause he lives less than ten minutes to me by car), I get sent emoticons when I text him (kinda strange), I know he takes my opinions seriously, I've gone to a bar with his wife, and I answered that darn mans' phone today for Pete's sake! Although it was because he was in the middle of a presentation and I knew the person on the other end. But still, what if all of this is the only reason I am where I am? What if I'm a bosses pet? I mean he even asked me to go into work this week and I thought it was a group text asking a bunch of employees, but from the way he answered I sound like the only one he asked. So yes it's a strange relationship, but is that the only thing that's gotten me where I am, or am I as hard working as I hope I am?
I'm probably talking nonsense, but it's just a lot of stress... Plus at the moment I'm making work plans, study pans, school related plans and social plans all at the same time for the upcoming 7 days, and it is hard to juggle all of this at once... Why am I the planner in my group of friends again?
-J
So yes summer has started and I have already hit my first impasse. I have to write an exam at the end of the summer to get into one of the classes I'm taking in a future semester, so now I have to turn into a study monster (the transformation is taking some time... A LOT of time). I'm hoping to get started tomorrow so I know I have enough time to know most of the stuff and be as prepared as possible. This is not the main source of my stress, yet... but it will be. I'll let that hit me when it does.
My main source of stress is work. Like I pointed out before, I am stressed about how people will take me as a manager this year. I mean last year was great in terms of me being and operations manager but being manager, it feels like it takes stress levels to whole new level... And I'm scared of messing up or of being the manager that everyone hates. I've met up with most of the new recruits and a lot of them seem really nice, but of course, I have to see how they work before I can make a final verdict. BD, co-manager and has an hate/love relationship with me, has been very nice the past few days, which gets me very suspicious for some reason, and maybe I shouldn't be suspicious, but I am. She would Facebook message me and get her bf to text me on her behalf (she currently doesn't have a phone) and she would be really nice when we see each other. It's a ice change of pace from my usual walk on eggshells, but I can't help but be suspicious anyways. L also seems to be super nice and we're getting along well even though he was being a sour grape a little while back. But what is stressing me is my boss. I just feel like he might be expecting a little too much out of me. I mean , I have no clue what I'm doing. I've been working the past two days along with BD, L and GW and we've been briefing the new people in on the job and touring them to our different locations and my boss would suddenly be like "J, you do it" and he won't stop insisting till I do whatever it is he asked. Things went by a lot easier today, maybe cause it was a repeat of the previous day, but not as bumpy a ride :P I just feel like it's going to be a lot o pressure on me this year (most of the pressure I'll probably be putting on myself), but I just feel like it will be.
In the past two days, I've met with over 40 new employees, gotten sunburned like it's the middle of July, gotten along with a lot of the new employees and already had my boss chauffeur me around, I wouldn't say it's a bad of good start, but it is definitely a start of the season.
My relationship with my boss is also stressing me out a little. Because even thought I know I've worked hard to get to where I am, the things people say about being the "favorite" is getting to me a little. I'm starting to think that maybe I did just get lucky and ended up having a good relationship with my boss. I mean he drives me home after shifts, and he's driven me into work once of twice (mostly cause he lives less than ten minutes to me by car), I get sent emoticons when I text him (kinda strange), I know he takes my opinions seriously, I've gone to a bar with his wife, and I answered that darn mans' phone today for Pete's sake! Although it was because he was in the middle of a presentation and I knew the person on the other end. But still, what if all of this is the only reason I am where I am? What if I'm a bosses pet? I mean he even asked me to go into work this week and I thought it was a group text asking a bunch of employees, but from the way he answered I sound like the only one he asked. So yes it's a strange relationship, but is that the only thing that's gotten me where I am, or am I as hard working as I hope I am?
I'm probably talking nonsense, but it's just a lot of stress... Plus at the moment I'm making work plans, study pans, school related plans and social plans all at the same time for the upcoming 7 days, and it is hard to juggle all of this at once... Why am I the planner in my group of friends again?
-J
Thursday, April 25, 2013
Summer is Upon Me!
Hey guys!
So I am done with this semester!! First year of university: CHECK! That is right, first year of Uni done, 2 (hopefully) more to go! So what am I going to be doing this summer? Well I already wrote down my plans here (check it out if you want, or not). But long story short, get in shape, work and read, read READ!!
I already have a bunch of books lined up (most of which I have bought in the past few years and never got around to) and I'm hoping to get even more books in, although I want to make myself only get books when I'm going to read them. I've noticed that I have a lot of hardcover books that are available in paperback by the time I get around to reading them. That is, only get them when I'm going to read them unless there is a sale, how can I say no to a book sale? I guess like last summer I'm going to keep you guys updated on the books I read, I don't know if I'm going to do a book list again like I did last year, although I might do a compilation at the end of the summer when I've tallied up all the books I've read.
My other plan is to get in shape! It'll be hard with work and all (I know from previous experience) but I want to go on jogs/walks in the morning, or go biking instead (whichever strikes my mood in the morning). Not every morning, but a good 2 times a week. I know it should be 2, but with working 35 hours in a week within 3 days, one can get tired :P But I will try, I promise (well actually don't hold me to that :P). I also have to go to the Zumba classes that ST got me for Christmas... yes shame on me, I never got around to going to them :P
And yes, my summer has just begun (today) and I'm already thinking about work and all that jazz, I am a eager one, I'll give you that :P I like to keep busy with an unhealthy dose of stress, not good for me I know, but it keeps me on my toes and focused. So back to work, I thought that I would have a good month off before I have to worry about that again... but I guess not... I have to go into work next week. Talk about a short summer. I'm hoping it's nothing big, probably just a meeting, organizing employees and setting out the plan for the year, but it's still work... and on top of it all, I have to go in in the morning :(
Speaking of work (I know I'm talking about work A LOT), I am worried about becoming a manager... Like what if something goes terribly wrong? What if I'm not cut out to be a manager? I was an operations manager last year, but it's on a whole new level, I mean last year I had one store to take care of, this year I'll have 4 (we own separate stores in different locations), on top of it all, if something went wrong, I had my manager to fall back on. It's a lot of work, and I'm scared that I'm not up for the task, although a lot of people think I am, I don't feel ready. I'll be the one calling the shots (if my boss isn't in) and I'll also be the one ultimately responsible if anything goes wrong, and I don't have a thick skin. The last time my boss left em in charge with the 4 stores, I went banana's. I legit broke down in the backroom, it was a hell a lot of stress, although my boss got an earful afterwards (and yet I am still working for him...). I'm hoping things go smoother now than it did last time, cause that did not leave a good impression on me. Also, I realize, I'm going to be an active part of firing and keeping employees... And I have a lot of friends coming in to work for us this year, am I ready to boss them around? Yell/lecture them if need be? Or worst case scenario, fire them? I'm a type of person that can't say no, so should I be worried? Maybe not, I mean I did recommend them so they are only the best of candidates... hopefully. So yes, it's a lot for me to think about right now preparing myself to get authoritative... my worst skill (yay). And like last year, I am walking in thinking "everyone will hate me." Yes that is what I walked into work thinking last year, and although I got a long with most people, I'm petty sure a few people couldn't stand me... But hopefully I'll leave a good impression on the newcomers like I did with the ones last year :)
Wish me luck!
-J
p.s. Good luck with your finals, essays and everything else! And if you're already done with it all, then have an amazing summer!
So I am done with this semester!! First year of university: CHECK! That is right, first year of Uni done, 2 (hopefully) more to go! So what am I going to be doing this summer? Well I already wrote down my plans here (check it out if you want, or not). But long story short, get in shape, work and read, read READ!!
I already have a bunch of books lined up (most of which I have bought in the past few years and never got around to) and I'm hoping to get even more books in, although I want to make myself only get books when I'm going to read them. I've noticed that I have a lot of hardcover books that are available in paperback by the time I get around to reading them. That is, only get them when I'm going to read them unless there is a sale, how can I say no to a book sale? I guess like last summer I'm going to keep you guys updated on the books I read, I don't know if I'm going to do a book list again like I did last year, although I might do a compilation at the end of the summer when I've tallied up all the books I've read.
My other plan is to get in shape! It'll be hard with work and all (I know from previous experience) but I want to go on jogs/walks in the morning, or go biking instead (whichever strikes my mood in the morning). Not every morning, but a good 2 times a week. I know it should be 2, but with working 35 hours in a week within 3 days, one can get tired :P But I will try, I promise (well actually don't hold me to that :P). I also have to go to the Zumba classes that ST got me for Christmas... yes shame on me, I never got around to going to them :P
And yes, my summer has just begun (today) and I'm already thinking about work and all that jazz, I am a eager one, I'll give you that :P I like to keep busy with an unhealthy dose of stress, not good for me I know, but it keeps me on my toes and focused. So back to work, I thought that I would have a good month off before I have to worry about that again... but I guess not... I have to go into work next week. Talk about a short summer. I'm hoping it's nothing big, probably just a meeting, organizing employees and setting out the plan for the year, but it's still work... and on top of it all, I have to go in in the morning :(
Speaking of work (I know I'm talking about work A LOT), I am worried about becoming a manager... Like what if something goes terribly wrong? What if I'm not cut out to be a manager? I was an operations manager last year, but it's on a whole new level, I mean last year I had one store to take care of, this year I'll have 4 (we own separate stores in different locations), on top of it all, if something went wrong, I had my manager to fall back on. It's a lot of work, and I'm scared that I'm not up for the task, although a lot of people think I am, I don't feel ready. I'll be the one calling the shots (if my boss isn't in) and I'll also be the one ultimately responsible if anything goes wrong, and I don't have a thick skin. The last time my boss left em in charge with the 4 stores, I went banana's. I legit broke down in the backroom, it was a hell a lot of stress, although my boss got an earful afterwards (and yet I am still working for him...). I'm hoping things go smoother now than it did last time, cause that did not leave a good impression on me. Also, I realize, I'm going to be an active part of firing and keeping employees... And I have a lot of friends coming in to work for us this year, am I ready to boss them around? Yell/lecture them if need be? Or worst case scenario, fire them? I'm a type of person that can't say no, so should I be worried? Maybe not, I mean I did recommend them so they are only the best of candidates... hopefully. So yes, it's a lot for me to think about right now preparing myself to get authoritative... my worst skill (yay). And like last year, I am walking in thinking "everyone will hate me." Yes that is what I walked into work thinking last year, and although I got a long with most people, I'm petty sure a few people couldn't stand me... But hopefully I'll leave a good impression on the newcomers like I did with the ones last year :)
Wish me luck!
-J
p.s. Good luck with your finals, essays and everything else! And if you're already done with it all, then have an amazing summer!
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